Wednesday, May 30, 2012
While She sleeps, I watch and wait. She takes the pieces out of Her eyes – the parts that help Her to see. She does not trust Her eyes. “Charlie keep us safe big boy” and almost instantly Her energy changes as She drifts off to sleep .
She is snuggled in a sleeping bag with pillows by Her head and Her middle and Her legs. She does not like to be “stuck” or “trapped” when She is resting. Her dog-sense is more developed than in most humans. The top and back of Her brain stays alert even while sleeping, like mine. But now She is tired. Weary.
The smelly blue car scared woman is tip-toeing to our car. Ears up! Sniff … Sniff ! I am watching you. This is our car. Don’t get too close. The angry man calls the scared woman back to him. The man is moving too fast … looking around…shifting his feet .. talking and looking behind him..around him. He grabs her arm, shaking it, staring hard into her eyes, making her more scared. The scared woman lowers her eyes and bows her head. I know what this means - The angry man is the alpha-dog. She is scared and subservient, she will do what she is told.
“Charlie shh!” She is sleeping. The necessary-to- survive-part of Her is aware of our surroundings. But She wants us to be invisible to other people so we don’t bother them and they don’t bother us.
I watch and wait. The smelly blue car people get back into the smelly blue car. Good. Stay!
I watch them from the darkly tinted window. They cannot see me. They do not know I am here. She sleeps some more and Her awareness is gone. Her eyes are moving quickly and Her body is completely still. I lay my head across Her ankles. Oh how I love Her!
Knock, knock knock …. huh? My girl is struggling to come awake, dreaming. AGGGGGHHHHHH! She screams! RUUUUUUOOOFFF! I am at the window- BARK BARK BARK!!!……. She is frantic. I don’t like this! My Girl is afraid! RUUUUOOOFF! RUUUOOOFFF! The smelly blue car scared woman is standing there. Ha! Now she is scared! BARK BARK BARK ! She did not know I was in the car! My Girl can’t see .. She reaches to her left where she left her glasses. Her legs are twisted in the snuggly blanket. She is more scared now PANIC! She is trapped and stuck RRUUOOOFFF! RUOOOOFFFFF!
My Girl frees herself while putting her glasses on her nose … and not taking her eyes off the scared stranger banging on the window “ I need some money” The scared woman is saying to My Girl “I am about to run out of gas and need to make it to Kansas”
Now My Girl is mixing angry with panic BARK BARK BARK!!! There is movement behind our car – the angry man is approaching!
“Roll down your window. I can’t hear you” the scared woman is saying to My Girl. My Girl is now mostly mad and focused. She positions her body so the woman cannot see her hands, reaches between the seats and pulls out the black metal. She takes it with us when we hike. This black hunting metal. Her gun. She thinks to herself “The dog is barking an inch from my ear … and YOU can’t hear? You are NOT going to rob me!”
Now My Girl is very angry. The man is getting closer. “Go inside!” She yells at the scared woman. “Go inside, away from the dog!” The woman looks around nervously BARK BARK BARK !!!!!!
and slowly starts walking away from the car, toward the building with lights and people bathrooms. The scared woman lowers her head and her eyes once again … but walks very very slowly. The angry man sees her and stops! My Girl is scrambling to get into the front seat… the angry man hears me BARKING RUUUOFFF!!! RUUUOOOOFFF! He quickly backs away from our car TOO LATE! She sees him in the rear view mirror.
She seems to grow taller and stronger right before my eyes. Her outrage replaces her fear … I become silent. A sense of cool calculation- She is no longer threatened. She is now the alpha-dog.
Now She protects me.
Posted by #browneinwalton at 3:51 PM
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
She is so tired. Sleep – I will stay awake and keep you safe.
We stopped at the place with all the big trucks in Oklahoma! She was singing a silly song and saying “it’s a movie Charlie” when we pulled up next to the big truck. She looks around the whole big space for big trucks before she gets out of the car. R-U-N and S-T-R-E-T-C-H and wag, wag wag!! RUUUUUFF!
A man! Is walking up behind her…. she doesn’t see him or smell him! RUUUFFF! Now, she sees him! Wait!….he is a friend… and thinking “A woman out here alone? Glad this is not my daughter” I like him. Hey Mister! I will keep her safe!
You have dogs!? Sniff, sniff …. “HA! a girl-dog! in your crotch? I smell her!” I Like Him! I Like Him!... My She is ALERT…. and steps back, She cannot smell that this cross-country truck driver is s-a-f-e. “Charlie DOWN! COME” She says in her mad voice. But her mad voice is scared ……what! what? wait? scared?! What ?! My ears are UP and PAYING ATTENTION now… This is MY GIRL!, wag wag wag wag!…
She says “sorry” to the man driver with a girl dog in his house far away and walks into the building. She doesn’t see the smelly blue car with the bad man and scared woman inside … watching her. She just walks .. “Charlie come!”
Why is she afraid? We are going back to her pack. Her pups, her mate. Wag, wag, wag!…. the desert is HOT and VERY COLD. She wants “New York” to make her feel safe. There was a mad woman in Texas that yelled at My Girl when She brought me into a building like this. “You could be poisoning people with that filthy dog! Cancer patients come in here!” The woman spit those words at My Girl. The Yeller did not know My Girl had a maybe-cancer on her spine too. “Maybe you should think twice before you speak” My Girl said to the Yeller “I need him with me at all times” my She said. “Get him out of here!” The Yeller yelled. That was Texas. She was worried about another Yeller, but willing to risk it.
She loves me. I love Her. Look at her, wag wag wag! inside her head thoughts of “Good –Boy! “
Wait! The smelly blue car woman is following My Girl … RUUUUFF! “Charlie! Quiet! I don’t want to get thrown out of here! Shhh! Good-boy .. be quiet. Let’s hurry up!” and just like that, right past the “No Dogs Allowed” sign, She brings me into a People-Bathroom. It is 2 AM and there is nobody in Oklahoma! except the smelly blue car people watching us.
My She hurries out of the building and back to our car. She doesn’t see the smelly blue car. She doesn’t smell the bad man and scared woman who want to take something from Her.
We jump into our car parked next to the big trucks under the lights in Oklahoma! She is so tired. She doesn’t smell the need to stay AWAKE and ALERT. The smelly blue car people are watching our car while She sleeps …..
Posted by #browneinwalton at 5:51 PM